Welcome to d real world ,she said to me condescendingly..Take a seat,take ur life,plot it out in black and white…Well I never lived the dream of the prom kings and d drama queens..I’d like to think of d best of me..Still hiding up my sleeve..I wanna run thru the halls of my schul..I wanna scram at the top of my lungs..I just found out thr’s no such thing as d real world..Just a lie u’ve got to rise above..!
Well,cudn’t think of a better way to put my feelings into words..that is exactly what past 1.5 year has been for me like..in this so called "real" world. And ppl looked so beautiful tht night...More beautiful thn ever.I very Strongly believe A woman isn’t worth the name unless her hair is flecked with a strand or 2 of silver.A man is but a callow youth unless u can really c his foread..I mean unless u can actually distinguish it frm d rest of d face.!And the round ones there-they looked so cute in tht shapeless shape..!For those who have no clue what I'm talking about,It's my school reunion.It wasn’t long back wen I left the bulding. It wasn long back wen I kept my uniform in some corner of my cupboard to lie thr safe.. forever,But It was almost 15 years back..wen I crossed that threshold for d first time.And between tht first and last time..Thr was a lifetime.Moments that are bound to last till eternity..memories tht I’ll carry with my to my grave.There were so many out there tht night who are still amongst my closest ones,ppl I still see often but never often enough.Values tht now I hold so dear..and the most intimate,precious and lasting friendships of my life.May I confess how I prepared for it..??!I pulled down all the school magazines from top shelf and just flipped thru d pages.A test for me indeed..To see how many instances cud I recall.And did I flunk?...Partially yes..!
But gradually trickle of memories became a river,immersing me in a flood of recollections..all pleasnt ones..time has mercifully erased any unpleasant one..It was like retuning to the womb..!!To ur almamater.
Those were the days,we were all beautiful,all wonderful, but we weren't real! No one was real,this world wasn't real!Too easy it was,too uncomplicated.Hell lot of issues out there but we never needed to care about them.There must have been poverty too but we were too busy in hiding that hole in our show to see through it.Ofcourse there was violence too but we were busy cheering for our basketball team..lol. Man! time flies and how..!Now when I'm a part of this "real" world(not completely yet!) it seems to be a bit of a nasty place at times.At one point of time,those 14 years seemed like a sentence for a crime I never got the chance to commit.;-) and now how badly I want to be a prisoner again..! sigh! At times I still crave for those 30 mins. of recess,for teacher to leave the class (so that we get to hit each other with chalk),to sit on those rusted benches in that discoloured classroom..:-(
Got to live my ultimate fantacy on the night of reunion.Turning to people 10 yrs older to me and sharing my experiences with them is something I'll always cherish.Some of them were shocked out of their wits as I was just a toddler(well..almost..!) when they left the school and every instance related to them was just so crystal clear in my mind.Aah..! people who always inspired me and even now never fail to do that.Little eyes that used to stare at them from some part of the playground,the mind and the heart that always aspired to be like them..is one of them now.Though haven't achieved much in my life as of now but some corner of my heart still wishes.. I manage to do to others, some of what they managed to do to me. :-)Heaven!So many pleasant memories and all flooding back to me. Someone was right! We leterary people are(in a way ) emotional fools.We strive on memories, our all time favourite drug.At d end of it, that is all we got when there is nothing to hold on to..!
Cheers..!
Nivedita
Well,cudn’t think of a better way to put my feelings into words..that is exactly what past 1.5 year has been for me like..in this so called "real" world. And ppl looked so beautiful tht night...More beautiful thn ever.I very Strongly believe A woman isn’t worth the name unless her hair is flecked with a strand or 2 of silver.A man is but a callow youth unless u can really c his foread..I mean unless u can actually distinguish it frm d rest of d face.!And the round ones there-they looked so cute in tht shapeless shape..!For those who have no clue what I'm talking about,It's my school reunion.It wasn’t long back wen I left the bulding. It wasn long back wen I kept my uniform in some corner of my cupboard to lie thr safe.. forever,But It was almost 15 years back..wen I crossed that threshold for d first time.And between tht first and last time..Thr was a lifetime.Moments that are bound to last till eternity..memories tht I’ll carry with my to my grave.There were so many out there tht night who are still amongst my closest ones,ppl I still see often but never often enough.Values tht now I hold so dear..and the most intimate,precious and lasting friendships of my life.May I confess how I prepared for it..??!I pulled down all the school magazines from top shelf and just flipped thru d pages.A test for me indeed..To see how many instances cud I recall.And did I flunk?...Partially yes..!
But gradually trickle of memories became a river,immersing me in a flood of recollections..all pleasnt ones..time has mercifully erased any unpleasant one..It was like retuning to the womb..!!To ur almamater.
Those were the days,we were all beautiful,all wonderful, but we weren't real! No one was real,this world wasn't real!Too easy it was,too uncomplicated.Hell lot of issues out there but we never needed to care about them.There must have been poverty too but we were too busy in hiding that hole in our show to see through it.Ofcourse there was violence too but we were busy cheering for our basketball team..lol. Man! time flies and how..!Now when I'm a part of this "real" world(not completely yet!) it seems to be a bit of a nasty place at times.At one point of time,those 14 years seemed like a sentence for a crime I never got the chance to commit.;-) and now how badly I want to be a prisoner again..! sigh! At times I still crave for those 30 mins. of recess,for teacher to leave the class (so that we get to hit each other with chalk),to sit on those rusted benches in that discoloured classroom..:-(
Got to live my ultimate fantacy on the night of reunion.Turning to people 10 yrs older to me and sharing my experiences with them is something I'll always cherish.Some of them were shocked out of their wits as I was just a toddler(well..almost..!) when they left the school and every instance related to them was just so crystal clear in my mind.Aah..! people who always inspired me and even now never fail to do that.Little eyes that used to stare at them from some part of the playground,the mind and the heart that always aspired to be like them..is one of them now.Though haven't achieved much in my life as of now but some corner of my heart still wishes.. I manage to do to others, some of what they managed to do to me. :-)Heaven!So many pleasant memories and all flooding back to me. Someone was right! We leterary people are(in a way ) emotional fools.We strive on memories, our all time favourite drug.At d end of it, that is all we got when there is nothing to hold on to..!
Cheers..!
Nivedita
good u strtd from smwr n took off smwr else...intrsting..
ReplyDeleteleaving aside ur comprehending skill for one...
Im proud f ur thgts...judging urself s one good f a thing ...